Beautifully Lying

I saw him at Macca’s last night.

"You can go say hi if you want."

You redeemed yourself from last time.

"I’ll see if he looks this way."

He did, and came over and said hi, and said he’d come down tomorrow to meet my puppy. I hope he does. I’m hesitant to get my hopes up, in case he cancels, but I’ll clean my room just in case.

I don’t know if he’ll bring anyone else with him. I wouldn’t really mind, I’d be happy for the others to meet my puppy too. But I’m honestly kinda hoping he doesn’t. We could go out and get lunch.

I’m getting better. A lot of it has passed. I haven’t spoken to him properly in so long. I was glad to see him last night, and I hope he does come round tomorrow. I won’t let myself get that bad again. It’s not allowed. This has taken long enough and I will not fucking let myself go that far again.

I don’t want to look too forward to it too soon. And “too soon” will be any time up to when he actually arrives at my door. But I still do hope he comes.

We shall see.

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"I’ve become one of those people who sits on a park bench alone.. all while despising every soul who passes by.. all while praying not to be left alone."
—this is who I’ve always been (via 5weetsorrow)

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"It’s not a big deal that you gained weight. Honestly, in the big picture, who cares? Did you live life the way you wanted to? Did you have fun? Did you find people you love? Did you learn lots of interesting things? That’s probably what you’re gonna care about when you’re at your death bed, not about the fact that you “gained weight” when you were 21."
—My 18 year old brother, when i was freaking out about my recovery weight gain.  (via thephilyptian)

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Mythology Asks
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do u ever lie on ur side and a small tear leaks out and ur just like whoa wtf body I know I’m sad but not that sad

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if i catch you glancing at me more than twice i will automatically think you like me so please don’t look at me ever

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"Homesickness is just a state of mind for me. I’m always missing someone or someplace or something. I’m always trying to get back to some imaginary somewhere. My life has been one long longing."

Prozac Nation (Elizabeth Wurtzel)

favourite book

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"make up is false advertisement!"


"i view women as products"

If you went on a few dates with a charming, fit-looking guy, decided to invite him upstairs, and after he took off his shirt he unstrapped a hidden girdle and his massive gelatinous kegbelly rippled forth, you would be pissed too.

did you really just compare a woman putting some powder on her face to a guy literally reshaping his entire body

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"I crave touch, yet I flinch every time someone is close enough."
—I have become rather fearful I suppose (via ninaindigo)

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"Everyone has three lives: a public life, a private life, and a secret life"
— Unknown (via psych-facts)
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"Everyone has three lives: a public life, a private life, and a secret life"
— Unknown (via psych-facts)
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no homo. we’re fresh out. we should get a new shipment in on monday

can you check in the back

Ya I guess I could check in the closet hold on a sec

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